There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.”-Maya Angelou
For those that may know me, you would know that Maya Angelou is my favorite poet and author, and has been an inspiration to my life. For those that don't know me, now you know. I often find myself going onto Google and searching for "Maya Angelou quotes", and on one particular day, while perusing through the search results, I came across the above mentioned quote. It jumped out to me because 1. This was a quote that I never came across before and 2. I believe the Lord has been tugging at my heart to tell me that I need to tell my story. I'm a firm believer that the Lord doesn't give you what you can't handle and when we put our trust in Him and understand there's a reason for it all, there is nothing we can not overcome.
Well the Lord has given me the grace to overcome many trials and tribulations in the 25 years of my life. So in upcoming posts I will surely tell my story. Personally, I am a little scared because besides immediate family and a close friends, many people don't know my story. In the past most people just saw me as the angry girl or the girl that was never happy or never smiled. But they don't know that behind that girl with the tough exterior laid a girl that at one point had low self esteem, a girl that was stripped of her innocence at a young age, a girl that found it hard to trust every and anyone, a girl that at most times, felt she was alone with no one to talk to. But instead of taking time out to get to know me, they did what most people would do; they judged and assumed. Because on the outside, they saw a girl that had nothing to be upset about. She had family and friends that loved and adored her, she never wanted for anything, and she was highly blessed. Little did they know that that girl was fighting an internal battle. Fighting to be happy, fighting to grasp the true meaning of being blessed, and just fighting to let go of the past that has scorned her so much.
But by His grace and constant tugging, that girl who later blossomed into a beautiful woman has finally stopped fighting. It took for me to realize that the battle was not mine to fight, but the Lord's. I surrendered my hurt and pain from the past to the Lord, and took it for what it was, my PAST. Now I only look to the future, and know whatever may come my way, there is a reason for it and a lesson to be learned from it.
One lesson that I learned from my years of being angry that I will like to share with everyone is,
Well the Lord has given me the grace to overcome many trials and tribulations in the 25 years of my life. So in upcoming posts I will surely tell my story. Personally, I am a little scared because besides immediate family and a close friends, many people don't know my story. In the past most people just saw me as the angry girl or the girl that was never happy or never smiled. But they don't know that behind that girl with the tough exterior laid a girl that at one point had low self esteem, a girl that was stripped of her innocence at a young age, a girl that found it hard to trust every and anyone, a girl that at most times, felt she was alone with no one to talk to. But instead of taking time out to get to know me, they did what most people would do; they judged and assumed. Because on the outside, they saw a girl that had nothing to be upset about. She had family and friends that loved and adored her, she never wanted for anything, and she was highly blessed. Little did they know that that girl was fighting an internal battle. Fighting to be happy, fighting to grasp the true meaning of being blessed, and just fighting to let go of the past that has scorned her so much.
But by His grace and constant tugging, that girl who later blossomed into a beautiful woman has finally stopped fighting. It took for me to realize that the battle was not mine to fight, but the Lord's. I surrendered my hurt and pain from the past to the Lord, and took it for what it was, my PAST. Now I only look to the future, and know whatever may come my way, there is a reason for it and a lesson to be learned from it.
One lesson that I learned from my years of being angry that I will like to share with everyone is,
When you continue to dwell on the past and your pain, you miss out on opportunities and blessings that are in front of you.
It took years for me to realize everything I missed out on. Take my experience and use it as a reminder of what not to do.
Peace and Blessings,
Yejide
